Is He Proven?

“Jesus, Jesus, help me trust you. How I’ve proved you o’er and o’er. Still, Jesus, Jesus help me trust you. Oh, for the grace to trust you more.”

I laughed to myself as I quickly changed the words to one of my favorite hymns so it matched my heart’s cry. At that very moment, worshipping with my loved ones, I had to be honest: I didn’t trust Jesus. In my mind, the weight on my heart and the responsibilities on my shoulders felt too heavy—even for Jesus

 At a very young age, I was taught to change a hymn’s declaration into a prayer in times of trouble. As I reworked the words to Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus, I had to chuckle. My heart was crying, “Jesus, Jesus, help me trust you!” and in so many ways trusting Jesus felt like an impossible mountain to conquer. Yet in the very next line, my heart simply but passionately admitted, “How I’ve proved You o’er and o’er.”

I nearly burst into tears on the spot realizing the beautiful truth my aching heart had just declared about Jesus. I can struggle to trust him from circumstance to circumstance. As time marches on, though, the amount of countless times I’ve proven his faithfulness no matter the ordeal only continue to increase.

I can struggle to trust him, but no matter what, I will never fail to prove his faithfulness.